Soul Destruction

I don’t normally do book reviews but ‘In Her Own Words’ (part of the ‘Soul Destruction’ series) by Ruth Jacobs is such a moving and honest account of the sex industry that I simply had to give it a shout out.

Ruth studied prostitution in the late 1990s, which sparked her interest in the subject. Her novels dispel the ‘happy hooker’ myth and expose the dark world and the harsh reality of life as a call girl. She draws on her research and the women she interviewed for inspiration. She also has first-hand experience of some of the topics she writes about, such as post traumatic stress disorder and drug and alcohol addiction.)

Ruth explains what her work is about far better than I could:

In Her Own Words… Interview with a London Call Girl is the unedited transcript from an interview I undertook with a London call girl in the late 1990s. It is an enlightening and moving, first-hand account of a woman’s life affected by prostitution, exposing the emotional, psychological and social effects of living that existence. All royalties from this publication are being donated to Beyond the Streets, a charity helping women exit prostitution.

This charity publication and the cause is very close to my heart, partly because the woman I
interviewed was a very dear friend, a wonderful person, and who had a terribly sad life, with
childhood sexual abuse and then being pimped on the streets from the age of fifteen. As
she is no longer alive, this is the reason I wanted the royalties to be donated to Beyond the

The stigma a significant section of society has against prostitutes and prostitution is mainly
due to lack of knowledge. 75% of prostitutes have been sexually and physically abused as
children, 70% have experienced multiple rapes, and 67% meet the criteria for posttraumatic
stress disorder, which is a major cause of suicide.

With this publication, I hope to show the reality of life for women working in prostitution,
the effects it has on them psychologically, emotionally, in relationships with men, how they
are viewed and how they feel they are viewed by society as outsiders and outcasts, often
judged and looked down on. Seeing them as real people, with real feelings, and acquiring
an insight into their tormented childhoods and painful present lives, allows people who are
not in that life to gain an informed perception of who these women really are, and with that
knowledge, are less likely to judge but instead develop compassion.

Extract from “In Her Own Words… Interview with a London Call Girl”

From a young age, from like being fifteen, I’ve been hardened to it. The first…when I first
started doing it, I cried my eyes out every day and just scrubbed myself in bleach and…I felt
like I’d been raped. It was just…it really screwed my mind up. And there’s this feeling when
you get…when you’re with a client and it’s like sometimes when you feel like…you grab your
fists and it’s like, “Get off me! Get off me!” And it’s like…you know you can’t push them off
you, right? Because you know you’re getting paid for it. So it’s basically allowing yourself to.
be raped, right? But you can’t even fight them back or say, “Get off me.” It’s like…and you

cry while it’s happening and all this shit, and you go home and you cry yourself to sleep after
all that shit, and it happens to you a lot of times until eventually that feeling goes away,
and that feeling…you don’t get that feeling anymore. It gets less and less and less. And you
become hardened in your like…your heart and your soul to it, and this is when you get the
hatred for the men.

To download your copy of In Her Own Words… Interview with a London Call Girl for 77p
visit this Amazon page in the UK or this one in the US for $1.20

To find out more about Ruth Jacobs and her Soul Destruction series of novels visit

28 responses

  1. Reblogged this on Fiore Rougee comentado:
    I never thought that not reblogging directly would be so controversial 😛 So, here it is 🙂 Sorry for the unecessary trouble I caused.

    12.09.26 at 20.13

  2. Thank you for everyone who has left comments and reblogged. I would love to reply to you all individually but I have PTSD myself, and like the women I am raising money for who work in prostitution and want to exit, I have also suffered childhood abuse and been raped. This is why I have PTSD, and sadly at the moment, my symptoms are so bad that I am unable to work and my parents have had to take my children temporarily because I am so tearful, and also on medication that makes me very dizzy and not able to see straight, so typing is quite hard for me right now. Even though all this is going on, the one thing that I feel I can be useful for right now is this cause. It means so much to me. All your support and comments have touched me so much and I am so grateful to you all and of course, to Kyle, for sharing this. And thank you to everyone who has downloaded a copy of “In Her Own Words… Interview with a London Call Girl”. Please can I ask that you share this on Facebook, Twitter, Google+ and wherever else you can, tell your friends and family and everyone. I want to put this truth out in society, raise as much funds as I can for Beyond the Streets, the charity I am donating all the royalties to, which helps women exit prostitution, raise awareness of their work, dispel the ‘happy hooker’ myth, which is a false message that has been sent to society, particularly to young and vulnerable women who have been led to believe that being a call girl is glamorous. Yes, on this outside it is, Q lived in flats in the most expensive streets in London, she took the most luxurious holidays, wore the best designer clothes and jewellery, went to the best nightclubs – getting in free and ushered straight into the VIP sections – but how is all that important when you see the pain and torment in her soul and in her heart?

    12.08.11 at 14.13

    • we’re with you all the way ruth

      12.08.11 at 16.56

      • Thank you so much! And thank you to all the wonderful people who’ve left comments, reblogged and shared. It means so much to me!

        12.08.11 at 18.20

  3. workspousestory

    Reblogged this on work spouse story and commented:
    Wow. That was hard to read.

    Even though it seems obvious prostitution such a difficult and complex concept to get your head around, sometimes – when interviews like that come to , for example – it hits you over your head even more.

    I am a big fan of The Secret Diaries of a Call Girl, for many reasons, not in the least the British sense of humour, the gorgeous clothes and the brilliant Billie Piper. However, I have always fully understood it glorifies sex trade and is such a sugar-coated account of that. And reading that interview makes me ashamed of myself to have enjoyed it that much.

    If you have a spare £0.77 or $0.99, head over to the link in Kyle’s post, and buy that interview on Amazon. All royalties will be donated to Beyond the Streets, a charity helping women exit prostitution. Find out more at and spread the word, my friends.

    12.08.11 at 12.22

    • thanks india – you are a star

      12.08.11 at 13.13

      • workspousestory

        Not at all. Thanks for sharing it!

        12.08.11 at 14.11

  4. Wow, I read it… Incredibly powerful and just totally real. Prostitution is definitely kind of taboo in society, and reading this made me want to hear more like it. I wish more girls like the one interviewed could have their voices heard, this was really heartbreaking and haunting. Thanks for sharing it, Kyle!

    12.08.11 at 04.09

    • how could i not, thank ruth for writing it eh?

      12.08.11 at 06.39

  5. Amazing post – Thanks to Rhonda for pointing me in you direction. Heartbreaking on so many levels.

    12.08.10 at 14.20

  6. This is so heartbreaking and more so because people have this ridiculous “Pretty Woman” visual of prostitiution. Thanks for posting this and big thanks to Rhonda for bringing the book to my attention.
    “Never believe that a few caring people can’t change the world. For, indeed, that’s all who ever have.” Margaret Mead

    12.08.10 at 12.57

    • I’m sneaking in here (sorry Kyle)…thanks Mo, I knew you’d ‘get it’. We’ve been afforded a HUGE voice here…and it’s stupid not to use it. xo

      12.08.10 at 14.05

  7. Reblogged this on Help Me Rhonda and commented:
    If you know me…you know I’ll stand up for a good cause. I’ll stand up, speak up, and put up. This is one of those causes.
    The World’s Oldest Profession. Sounds kind of romantic huh? Or how about the Old West’s portrayal of the always affable, always cheery saloon girls. Take it a step further and give a wonder about that series done for one of the premium cable channels about how wonderful life is as a prostitute working on “The Ranch” in Vegas. Really? Who is kidding who here?
    It’s my honor to showcase Ruth Jacob’s and her stunning series “Soul Destruction” and specifically her book “In Her Own Words…Interviews with a London Call Girl” which I’m re-blogging from All proceeds from this book, available on, are being donated by Ruth to the charity “Beyond the Streets”, which helps women exit the World’s Oldest. Please join me and many others in helping Ruth help them. Take a moment to read, in her own words, what drove this incredible woman’s work, and buy the book!
    Thanks Friends…R

    12.08.10 at 12.16

  8. Very sad.

    12.08.10 at 10.40

    • sure is – thanks for saying

      12.08.10 at 11.48

  9. And hey…while talking about it is great…reading Ruth’s book is better and it helps her help them. I just bought it…challenge each of you to do the same, and you could challenge your own readers or FB friends. Stories like these should not just sit on a book shelf. Just my 2 cents.

    12.08.10 at 07.28

    • keep saying it rhonda

      12.08.10 at 11.48

      • no problem there…if you told me to stop talking, then we’d have a problem. I’ll keep saying it and keep putting my money where my mouth is (less room for my foot! 🙂

        Ruth deserves the support! They ALL do.

        12.08.10 at 11.57

    • Good point! heading over to Amazon in a bit.

      12.08.10 at 14.14

      • I’m glad Bonnie…I’ve been following the story on her blog…but I got the book too. It’s raw and gritty and so brutally honest as to make you furious and sad and everything in between. Ruth has a lot to be proud of with this. I am more than willing to do my part to see her succeed with it. Thank you for being another who ‘gets it’.

        12.08.10 at 14.21

    • Great point R – heading over to Amazon now.

      12.08.10 at 14.19

  10. I feel that’s so true. Not that I’d know, but I did do ‘that’ a few times for a few weeks in my life, here and there, and my soul cringed, even then.

    12.08.10 at 06.47

    • a very good point – thanks

      12.08.10 at 06.49

  11. PAZ

    “75% of prostitutes have been sexually and physically abused as
    children, 70% have experienced multiple rapes, and 67% meet the criteria for posttraumatic stress disorder, which is a major cause of suicide” Those are some rough stats.

    Thanks for sharing this Kyle!

    12.08.10 at 06.01

    • how could i not?
      thanks for reading p

      12.08.10 at 06.03

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