Posts tagged “Faith

As free as a little bird

Crying is like pooing, if you don’t do it regularly, it really hurts.

I learned this from Ricky Gervais of all people on when he was on Desert Island Discs. One of the songs he chose, he chose because it made him cry. I didn’t get it at all, I was baffled. Why would he want to make himself cry, especially when he was stuck on a desert island? Then I realised, he is comfortable with all his emotions, not just the happy ones and I became sad because I realised that I was not like that but wished that I could be.

I’m not sure quite how it happened, gradually, I guess, by not changing the station when a sad song came on or switching channels when a movie made me want to cry, and slowly I started to feel comfortable with more of me, feel fuller as a person.

Lee hall puts it much better in his fantastic and heartbreaking radio play about faith, love and death Spoonface Steinberg. I made a little clip of the first two minutes. It says what I feel better than I ever could.

the saddest things fill you up. like, in a big way and you feel so full as in no happiness can bring such.


life is beautiful because we die

imagine the best sunset you ever saw and then imagine that the sky always looked like that – it would cease to be beautiful, because it would be normal. beautiful things must, by definition, be rare – the universe existed for billions of years before we were born and will continue to exist for trillions of years after we die. like those rare desert plants that only blossom for one day every 150 years, the beauty of life lies in its brevity, and its rarity.

everlasting life would, were it possible, rob our lives of their beauty. so thank god that he doesn’t exist and that tomorrow we might die.