tie me up
and use me,
abuse me, please.
find my edge
and then find yours.
take us both beyond
what we know,
we ever should.
make we wait,
make me beg,
make me cry
make yourself wet
with my pain.
disgust me the most
me do them
do all these things,
if you will.
do more than
you thought you could,
but do it
just one thing;
i will do it to you.
Just for a day,
Or maybe a weekend,
I want to be woman.
I want to know
What it feels like to have breasts.
I want to lift up my t-shirt
And flash them at a stranger
Just to enjoy the look on his face.
I wanna know what it feels like
To have a clit,
to play with it.
What does it feels like
For a woman to orgasm?
Is it the same?
Is It better?
I want to know
What it feels like to get fucked,
To spread my legs
And wrap them round you,
Pulling you into me,
Feeling you empty your soul
And your nuts
I wanna stand up to the bullies,
Meet some guy that treats me like an object
And kick him so hard in the nuts
That he’ll never walk the same again.
Just for a day,
Or maybe a week,
I want to be woman.
liked this? See what you think of the sequel.
Part four, Pearl.
Halle closed the door silently behind her and peered across the dark room. She could hear him breathing. He would have no reason to keep up the pretense, she thought, once she offered him the buckle. Not that she intended to give it to him. She had her phone and tucked into the waist of her black Pepe jeans were twelve inches of stainless steel kitchen knife. She flicked on the bedside lamp. His eyes were already open, staring blankly up at the ceiling.
What she hadn’t expected was for him to keep up the charade. She told him that she had what he wanted. Nothing. She showed him, she waved it in his face, prodded him with it. What was he playing at? Was it her, she wondered, had she been hearing things? She hadn’t had anything like that for years, not since middle school, when she’d hurt that boy, but she’d been just a girl then. Doctors had bored the voices away, she was fine now. She’d show him just how sane she was. She pulled the angry steel with a dark hush from its denim sheath. It smelt of strawberry-pop body cream.
Pearl could not remember why she had called, when Kyle got there, or even if she had.
“I don’t think it was me dear,” she said worriedly. He smiled, she was always like this. He peeked under the cover, without thinking, for a second, to ask. The sheets were wet, he’d thought so. “I don’t know who did that,” Pearl commented, seriously.
“Come on,” he smiled again, “let’s get you cleaned up shall we.” He lifted her into her chair single handed, he didn’t want to wake the others and she was tiny. “Like a bony little chicken,” he told her. He couldn’t be bothered washing her but he didn’t want her lying there wet, so he changed her nightie and went to get clean sheets.
He stopped and wiped his damp hands on his shirt and peered again down the corridor. There was a glow coming from under Albert’s door. Someone must have left the light on.
Halle tried to hold the knife steady, it wasn’t easy, she was shaking like an old phone. The viscous point barely pricked the skin, but he wasn’t going to move with it there, she thought.
But he still wouldn’t talk, despite her threats, so she pushed, gingerly, on the handle and made him a sadistic promise, in a voice that wasn’t hers. She shuddered at what she was doing, disgust and exhilaration mixing like volatile chemicals in her blood, making her fizz.
All he did was blow a little bubble of spit. It mocked her, she thought, it thought she was weak.
“That your best shot?” it said “That all you got, little girl?” Anger spread through her, like jungle fires at night and she kept her promise. It took her several moment to realise the giggling was coming from her.
“What the fuck?” said a surprised voice behind her, “Halle, is that- What is going on?” It was Kyle. ‘What is she doing to Albert?’ he thought. ‘Why is his duvet on the floor?’ and then ‘Why is he sitting up?”
The old man swung into a sitting position. As Halle turned he brought his heel down hard on her knee. It would buy him the seconds he needed, he was slow and stiff with the weeks of inactivity. With one hand he reached under the bed, there was a rip of tape and his hand emerged holding a large revolver; with the other he sent the knife flying expertly across the room. Kyle staggered backwards clutching his throat, slipping in his own blood. ‘Still got it.’ thought the old man.
Halle’s knee had exploded with pain. Shock waves rang through her bones, and she staggered, the room was swaying. Then he was on her shoving the gun in her face, pushing her up against the wall, telling her things, things she didn’t want to hear.
Pearl wasn’t sure how long she’d waited but she thought it had been a long time. There had been a boy, hadn’t there? He’d gone to get something. Or had he?Or was it the doctor? That could be it. She was getting one of her heads. She’d go and have a look.
He was telling her she was about to die. He wasn’t lying. Who the Hell did she think she was? Stupid! Little! Child! He punctuated these words with sharp, painful jabs of the gun, cutting her cheek. He rubbed at his groin, she’d hurt him at least, she thought.
He looked her straight in the eye, and stood back holding the gun, arm’s length, to her throat . He pulled his head back and away, shielding his eyes with the other hand.
Pearl pushed her way down the corridor. Someone had left an awful mess at the other end, she thought. It was all over the walls and floor, she was sure that it wasn’t meant to be like that, but people seemed to know what they were doing. There was the boy lying in the middle of it all. It seemed odd to her but she didn’t say anything. She didn’t want to look stupid.
She wheeled herself carefully around Kyle’s twitching body.
His flies were open. She tutted loudly, as she rounded a corner. Young people! Honestly! “Excuse me dear,” she said to Gourko, “sorry to be a bother-”
Gourko swung the gun round automatically at the little old lady and then realised his mistake. Halle punched him in the face with all she had, he reeled back and the gun flew from his grip.
‘Ooh dear!’ thought Pearl as the Colt Diamondback landed on her lap, ‘whatever next?’ She had little feeling in her legs but the heavy lump of carbon steel landed with a thump that shook her chair.
This was odd, she thought, but she wasn’t sure. A lonely neuron ran around a burnt out library in her brain panicking, trying to find a reference. She couldn’t remember where it had come from now. Well she better do something, they were probably waiting for her to do something, she didn’t want to look stupid. She picked the gun up and held it out like she had seen in the movies. It was heavy and wobbled in her hands. It was wobbling straight at Halle and Gourko. They both shouted
“No!” Halle adding
“Pearl!” Now what was it you said? thought Pearl. That was it!
“Go ahead punk,” she giggled, “make my tea!” and pulled the trigger.
Gourko was dead before he hit the wall. Halle looked over at the old man, half of him seemed to be missing or dripping from things. She tried to stagger over to the sink to throw up but passed out on the way.
As welcome unconsciousness enveloped her she could hear a little voice.
Pearl’s chair had been knocked over backwards by the recoil. Lying on her back with her legs in the air and her nightie over her face, she wondered how long she had been there.
“Everyone can see my knickers!” she complained again.
Halle’s boyfriend, Bailey, sits engrossed in the contents of the old attaché case. Its full of old photos and papers, yellow and curled, tied up in little bundles with tiny ribbons and neatly knotted string. She had laughed when he’d asked if that was it, and called him pathetic. What had he expected, Kryptonite?
Halle leaves him to the rusty brown envelopes and telegrams.
She climbs out onto the fire escape, up onto their roof. Takes off her top, and jeans, folds them neatly, slips off her Nike Skyraiders and stands shivering in a skimpy, brightly coloured, and clearly home made, costume.
She takes it out of her bag, it is too long to go around her waist so she fashions it into a figure eight crossing it between her breasts and fastening it behind her neck. The rush nearly knocks her off her feet and she staggers and falls over the edge.
Without thinking, she lands nimbly on a lamp post twenty five feet below. She feels its long glowing arm flex under her and spring back. She rides it, turning a slow somersault, high across the street, landing gracefully on a telegraph pole, her balance nanometre perfect.
The young woman runs effortlessly along the wires, scampers fifty feet up a wall and sits perched on a high roof like a bird, panting wildly.
She crosses the city in minutes. Swinging from lampposts jumping over walls, running along the train cables, tumbling over the roofs and chimneys: a blur in the night sky. A few people spot her and scream excitedly.
Halle comes to rest on a phone mast on the roof of a tall building halfway across town, sweaty and exhilarated. The seam on one of her shoulders is giving way, she is terrible at sewing, she hopes the crotch will hold.
She stands, tiptoed, on the very top of the mast, hundreds of feet up, and looks out across the city, there’s a scream of terror in the distance, a mugging perhaps, or worse. ‘Not tonight,’ she thinks, and leaps into the darkness.
I think I’m a pervert, because I just don’t seem to get turned on by the same things that other guys do. Do you know what my favourite “porn” is? scrolling through a sexy conversation I’ve had with a woman I’m keen on, or one that has talked dirty to me, reading the words she has written to me. Looking into a woman’s imagination gets me hotter than looking down her panties, although that does it for me too and any of you wanna share, please feel free to send those pics/vids in, just add a few lines or two of text though please.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m not opposed in any way to porn or sexy images and often masturbate to pictures and video but, and this is where you will realise just what a sicko I am, I tend to look at faces. a good come face will do it to me every time. No matter how wide her legs are spread or how much boobage is on display, no matter how splattered she might be with cum (why do guys/I find that so sexy?) she might be, if she has a cheeky grin or a sexy smile, then that is probably what I will be looking at when I come.
When I masturbate, I tell myself stories (rather than imagine situations), some of which you may have read here, and when I can’t put a decent plot together, when I can’t imagine a beginning, a middle and an end, or when my characters feel unformed or the set-up unbelievable, I struggle to come. Even though I think Beyonce Knowles and Germaine Greer are gorgeous, I would far rather fantasise about a woman I know. It gets worse though, and I hate to admit this, but I fantasise about foreplay when I play with myself, I fantasise about massaging her back or feet or washing her hair, about turning her on. See, I told you I was weird. I told you I was a pervert. Please help me find decent professional help.
“this is tom,” she says, “from work”
he had just assumed, when she said that she would ask a friend, that it would be a girl friend, and, to be fair to him, he is up for it and she closes her eyes and hums with pleasure at the feel of four hands caressing over and round and down her naked body
they are both a little timid at first but her moans of delight soon heats them up and she plays with their erections, rubs them against each other, kisses them
“kiss” she tells them and they do, gingerly at first but with a growing passion as she rubs their shafts up and down and against each other pressing their members together feeling them throb hotly, she imagines their cum mingling and dripping down over their lengths and through her fingers
“touch each other,” she whispers and they do, shivers run down her as she watches them play with each other and she kisses them both in turn and then both together
then, they enter her, front and back, and, all kneeling, she can feel their cocks meet inside her as they thrust inwards and upwards, she squeals with the delight, pulling them into her harder, whispering words of encouragement between deep breathy gasps.
they come together, the three of them, in long, loud, powerful waves, the men lifting her into the air with their arms and cocks and she squeezes with the walls of her pussy and her ass, feeling them pulse and squirt into her, almost fainting at her zenith
after, they lay in a heap and she kisses them both over and over
they shower, the three of them together, “i must have the cleanest tits on the planet” she thinks to herself, smiling